1 year ago today I held my baby boy Josiah in my arms for the first and last time. Mommy misses and thinks about you everyday. You were perfect! I feel in love immediately. You had daddy's nose and you even came out with your hand raised to your face with your index finger in your temple like he does! People say time heals but why can't I stop crying? Some days I think, what could I have done differently, then I realize, Nothing!! God didn't make you for this earth, he used me for 5 months to help him create an angel for heaven. Even though it hurts that you are not here with me and daddy, I have peace knowing you are with the One who really created you! Just know,my sweet Josiah Daniel that you are in our hearts everyday. You impacted our lives tremendously even though your your time here on earth was so short! Mommy and daddy are waiting for the day to reunite with you, so until then baby boy... ❤❤❤

So Thankful!

Good Morning Everyone!!

So my first few weeks at my new job have been great. I am really liking my work and love my coworkers. I can't help but feel so thankful for what God has done and is continuing to do in my life! Even through all the trials I have been through I know He loves me!

This morning I just want to say a prayer for all of you, whether things are going well in your life or if you are really experiencing difficult time!!

Dear Sweet Jesus,
Thank you for all you do in our lives. Your love and Grace is amazing and unchanging! I pray for all, to find and keep love, peace, and joy in their lives. No matter what anyone is going through, I pray that they know that You love them and everything that comes from You is good! Help us daily to be closer to You and help us to know and follow your will for our lives! Amen

Getting Through One Day at a Time

This week has been a tough one for me, working up to day! Today would have been my due date with Josiah! I try not to think about it but it is pretty much impossible. I know that he is in good hands and I do have peace about the whole situation that happened, its just that I miss him so much! I know that I have no control over any of this, but this bible verse is fitting:

"I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the LORD." ~ Samuel 1:27-28

Mommy will miss you everyday and love you forever! 

A New Chapter

Hello Everyone!!

        

 Well, today I started my new job at Community West Bank!!! I am so excited and also a little nervous since I haven't worked in 2 1/2 years!! The first and longest break from work ever in my life. I have been through a lot in this time, I got to spend some great quality time with my friends and family, gave birth to my little angel, Josiah who, Jesus wanted in Heaven, I had surgery to remove my lap band and best of all I got to spend a lot of time taking care of my wonderful husband! I know that this is where God is leading me because I didn't really mean to apply for this job, It just kind of fell in my lap and it is in Santa Barbara, so I am just going to go with the flow and just pray that His will be done in this new adventure! Love you all ♥

 

Time is Flying By!!

Good Morning Everyone!!

Well its been a while sine I wrote anything. I am sorry for not staying consistent. To tell you the truth, it hasn't been easy dealing with all that has happened to my husband and I in the last 6 months. I originally started this blog for a few of reasons, the first was to share my story so others can be aware and educated about possible things that can happen while having the Lap Band, second, I wanted anyone else experiencing similar situations knowing that they are not alone! Third, I thought it would be therapy for me... Writing things down really helps!!

As I started this, it really started to become all about my weight! That is really not the purpose, but I guess that was what I was focusing on after we lost our son. I really want to be here for people and talk about life in general. I want others to share their stories too! I also want people to know that one of the most important things that is getting me through "Life" is my relationship with Jesus!!! He has gotten me through it all. I have peace knowing my son Josiah is in heaven, safe in his arms!! My faith is a very important factor in my journey.... So while I write these blogs, I will share bible verses and quotes and I pray that even one of you are touched or helped in some way as I do this!

I promise to get better at blogging more often, even when my days are tough! Thank you all for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful day :)

Finally Moving in the Right Direction!!

Good Morning Everyone! On Wednesday I  was pretty upset when I stepped on the scale and realized that I had gained more weight. I immediately felt like I had to do something different. I started using the my fitness pal app and I made sure to stick to a 1200 calorie diet. As of this morning I weigh 170 pounds!! After all the craziness that has occurred in the last few months, I am really staring to feel normal again. Finally I am seeing results! I am not recommending 1200 calorie intake for anyone else, because everyone is different. So do what works for you and if you are not seeing results, change it up! The definition of "insanity" is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results!! So lets stay positive, motivated, and inspired! Believe in yourself, after all God made you the way He wanted you... "PERFECTLY" 

WOW! I forget where I came from sometimes!

What Are You Doing For Results??

First of all, I want to thank everyone who has checked out my blog!! The responses I have gotten are through Facebook (Life with Serenity) and Twitter (@jenterronez) are so wonderful! All your comments, and stories are touching and I am blessed to have all of you in my life, whether I know you personally or not!!

What are you going to do differently today?? Yesterday was a great day for me! I walked/jogged to my mom's house, I ate super clean, oatmeal for breakfast, fruits and veggies for the rest of the day! I even had a yogurt Popsicle that was only 45 calories and really hit the spot on a hot day!! Then when Robert came home we did our 10th day of insanity... This morning I weighted 172 pounds!  I really want to get back down to 150 pound especially since Robert and I want to start trying to have another baby! I don't want to balloon up to 200+ pounds while being pregnant!

Today, I want to mirror yesterdays diet and exercise! I also started using a great app on my iPad and iPhone called my fitness pal. It is a great way to track everything... Your exercise (calories burned) all you food intake including water. I am on a 1200 calorie diet. I want to see if this really works for me. I have a doctors appointment with my family practice doctor. I am going to have them check my thyroid just to make sure everything is normal!

Share with me what you are doing and what has worked for you! Let's motivate each other every day!